she must be really hard-up for cash if she was willing to divulge these dark secrets. or maybe it’s part of her recovery? she gives a blow-by-blow account of her two drunk driving arrests, three rehab visits, and cocaine usage.

the underlying cause of her erratic behavior, she says now, was her father airing the family’s dirty laundry in public.

“that’s when i hit rock bottom. i abused substances too much, and it wasn’t the answer to my problems. people need to know that… i tried to mask my problems with alcohol, cocaine, and mind-altering substances. now i’m in a place where i don’t need to use anything and i feel emotions because i choose to.”

fame really did a number on her, unfortunately. lohan goes on to say that she never wants to lose everything she’s worked for. but it ain’t a secret that the actress hasn’t been in any hit movies lately. so the question is, has the damage already been done?

there are simply no words. i used to watch TLC’s ‘jon & kate plus 8′ to get away from it all. ridiculously adorable kids and funny moments made for the perfect tv relief. but then, it happened. it’s no secret that this family has fallen into the media frenzy of fame & gossip. and oh how the people love it – the premiere of season 5 was the most-watched show ever on TLC, with 9.8 million viewers.

let it be said: just like anyone in the limelight, we cannot truly speculate what is going on in their life, what they’re thinking, what they’re going through, etc. but what i can do is comment on what i’ve seen as a viewer of their show.

through the past 4 seasons, let’s be honest, kate has changed so much. even from just the last season, it seems almost eerie how different she acts. in the season premiere alone, kate talked more about her personal endeavors than ever before. it’s a no-brainer that she loves her children & has worked hard to make a great life for them. BUT it simply doesn’t add up. she spent probably half the episode talking about the paparazzi & her “career.” she started to tear up and immediately stopped as she “didn’t want to ruin her makeup”. and jon… where the heck was he? despite issues between he and his wife, you can’t just take off for a weekend. my heart broke when little alexis said “daddy i don’t want you to leave anymore…”

i’m not the expert, but i do know that it takes 2 to make a marriage work. not a magazine, not a tv show. the worst thing you can do is publicly bash each other (kate: “well, i’m doing it on my own. by myself. jon decided he needed a weekend off,” then rolls her eyes). and then it hits rock-bottom. kate introduced the dreaded d-word. once you admit that divorce is a possibility, it becomes an inevitability. they say that their family is their number one priority, and if it really is, then get rid of the tv show. get rid of the rumored $75,000 per episode. and get back your LIFE.